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Ambivalent 
 
(lyrics by Ahren Buchheister)
You say that you're in love with me /And I'm am just ambivalent
Want to dip your feel full in / And I just want my toes wet
You say that you are passionate / And I'm just tryin' to pay the rent
Girl you want to change the world / Well I’d just like to make a dent

I wanna pick your brain / leave a hollow shell
Show me who you are / I swear I’ll never tell
Here I sulk and pace / and I waste the days
While you act a wench in some Scottish play

Run my fingers through your long red hair,
Touch your ivory skin / but you’re not really there
You’re just a construct on my computer screen
But you and smile and laugh, and you sing to me

You tell me all the things that I want to hear
You’re just out of reach even though you seem near
You are everything that I want to be
What the fucking hell is wrong with me?

You say that you're in love with me /And I'm am just ambivalent
Want to dip your feel full in / And I just want my toes wet
You say that you are passionate / And I'm just tryin' to pay the rent
Girl you want to change the world / Well I’d just like to make a dent

I wanna pick your brain / leave a hollow shell
Show me who you are / I swear I’ll never tell
Here I sulk and pace / and I waste the days
While you act a wench in some Scottish play

Run my fingers through your long red hair,
Touch your ivory skin / but you’re not really there
You’re just a construct on my computer screen
But you and smile and laugh, and you sing to me

You tell me all the things that I want to hear
You’re just out of reach even though you seem near
You are everything that I want to be
What the fucking hell is wrong with me?

You say that you’re in love with him / Yeah, well I’m ambivalent
You say that you just dove right in / I never got off the bench
You say that he is passionate / And all I did was pay the rent
You say that you both change the world / I didn’t even make a dent

Now I want to change the world/ I didn’t even make a dent
Now I want to change the world/ I didn’t even make a dent



Picadilly 3
rd
(lyrics by: Ahren Buchheister and Cara Santin)
Not on the radio (not on the radio)

I’m not on TV (not on the tv)

Not on the stereo (not on the stereo)

And so you can’t see me (so you can't see me)
 
I should have have told you that you and I were through
I guess that there's not much a guy like me can do
You call out and I'm not there so you let out a sigh
You should go find yourself another sissy guy
 
You can't see me now I'm everywhere you go
I can't show you how just thought you'd like to know
 
I don't know who you are (who you are)
I don't know what you've heard (what you've heard)
My car and my guitar and Picadilly 3rd
 
I tried to call you say I'm sorry I tried to call you to say I'm guilty
I tried to call you but pride won't let me so i'll just drown you in gin and whiskey
I built up this wall made it brick by brick made it six feet tall you still see over it
I wrote you these words and I hope they stick
You made up your bed now you can sleep in it
 
You can't see me now I'm everywhere you go
I can't show you how just thought you'd like to know
That I'm gone...
 

Whale Song (lyrics by: Ahren Buchheister and Harrison Willis)

I wish that I could wake up alive like yesterday
I couldn't see past my nose I couldn't see anyway
You weren't even there you were not right
Once I was out of your hair you were out of sight
 
Breathing in your curls and peppermint tea
And all those things that you said really get to me
I'm sorry I set off all those fireworks
But being quite upset is one of those cruel perks
 
Breathing in your curls and peppermint tea
And all those things that you said really get to me
So even if I wake up alive like yesterday
The only thing that keeps me sleeping
Is knowing you're away (knowing you're away)
 
 Chelsea (lyrics by: Ahren Buchheister and Harrison Willis)
Please don't tell me all of your darkest secrets
Please don't tell me 'cause it's none of my business
Lying on the bathroom floor
Is a girl spitting up her heart all over me
 
You've lost your senses they're lying on the tiles
Fireworks and blush bleed into your hairstyles
My eyes are livid with all this running through
I'm trapped here suffocating in this tiny room
 
Another bad New Year's
Packed like sardines into my car
She kissed me goodbye without a trace left of love in her heart
I saw the explosions in the sky as I drove away
 
You've lost your senses they're lying on the tiles
Fireworks and blush bleed into your hairstyles
My ears are arid but yours are running red
Your breath is vodka it's spinning through your head
 
So scrape yourself off of the floor
Your eyes are beginning to rust
I heard the drainage run all through your hair
Your eyes are purple purple with lust
 
You've lost your senses they're lying on the tiles
Fireworks and blush bleed into your hairstyles
With bitten fingernails and cutting to the chase
You could've told me all this in a better place
 

Klorox (lyrics by: Ahren Buchheister and Cara Santin)

Overdosing on the paranoia 
The bureaucrat's finger is on the red button
We're harbingers of our self destruction
 
Help us out don't be late
Time will help seal our fate
From your lips a single word
Whispers that go unheard
 
Signals fading through the interference
Now it's too late with no warnings to heed us
All your prayers they won't make a difference
 
Help us out don't be late
Time will help seal our fate
Hold the blade to my wrist
Drag is right over it
See the blood flow right out
Hold my wounds as I pass out
Lay me down in pools of red
Fold my arms and kiss my head
(repeat)
Thorazine please come and dance with me
Waltz to the melody of sleepless sorrow
Stay with me live in my fantasy
How pretty life could be if we wake up tomorrow
 

Whiteout (lyrics by: Ahren Buchheister and Cara Santin)

When the snow first fell it was such a novelty
But now it's been a month or so and I'm pretty sure you're through with me
It was so pure when it fell on your doorstep
But now I'm in too deep and I can't take one more step
 
I walked to your house with the snow falling silently
And each city block I passed it felt like an eternity
You leave in the fall these days that's all you talk about
Like the night I called to say I'd come to find you through the whiteout
 
I tried so hard to know what you wanted
I tried so hard to be who you wanted
I tried so hard to live the way you wanted
I tried so hard to be who you wanted
(break it off break break it off)
 

Blankets (lyrics by: Cara Santin)

Look out I'm exploding in my head I had to break out now the windows are all busted
Open the door gotta face what's out there are you ready we need you to be there
Look up do you think it'll be the same look ahead in one year what have we gained
I'm still lost and you don't know my name but I guess that's the nature of this game
 
I wanna yell (I wanna yell I wanna yell but there's no breath in my lungs)
I would write (I wold write I would write if there were ink in my pen)
No going back (No going back no going back now the damage is donw)
This battles over (The battles over but the party has just begun)
 
If you play with fire you might get burned
Work hard if you wanna get ahead
But if you fall asleep with a gun in your mouth
You just might wake up with a bullet inside your head
 
I've got thoughts in my brain but my tongue is out of words
So here I'm gonna break down at the end of this song
 
Oh no hear we go what's wrong with me I speak again and again I just mispeak
What is this for are you trying to help me I wish you'd back off with all the questioning
Messed up why is all of this all so hard I wish in real life you could really just press restart
We're still lost we're still not eye to eye better count our losses and say goodbye
 
(repeat "I wanna yell..." and "If you play with fire...")
 
I've got thoughts in my brain but my tongue is out of words
So here I'm gonna break down right here right about now
 

Emo Dance Song (lyrics by: Ahren Buchheister, Cara Santin, and Jesse Smith "Casheer")

Another Goddamn emo song
Crying in the basement with the lights off
I could find a dark corner in a well lit circular room
Well how's that for you baby
 Oh you know it's alright with me
 
Don't stare at me I just like to kiss other guys
For the fun for the pleasure for the attention
Let me be alone with the voices in my mind
Telling me I've got to wear those tight shirts and girl's pants
 
You don't know me don't pretend that you do
Nobody does nobody gets me no one understand
I sit at home all night and feel sorry for myself
So don't pretend that you know me 'cause you never will
 
The second verse for me so let's try this again
You call me liar but I invented
This look and this hair and this trend I swear
Check out these tunes with no variety
About the things you said and how they get to me
Now let me see you c'mon and show me how
Show me some moves and dance around now (dance dance dance)
(repeat chorus)
 
Pompeii we gonna rock the beat Jae Money got that flow from the street
Mix a little rap rock n' roll wait for the beat lock and load
Two different worlds apart here merged into one like Jay Z Linkin Park
We swim in the big league y'all fish we a bunch of shark hump in the dark
Put us up against that competition we will not fail our mission
We turn it up burn it up like pots boiling in the kitchen
One stop from the top of the ladder do it like us nobody badder
Hear a lot of talk stop the chatter you know who it is so scream it louder
(repeat chorus)
 

I Got Style (lyrics by: Jesse Smith "Casheer" and Errol Silva)

 

La Sombra (lyrics by: Ahren Buchheister and Cara Santin)

La sombra que cubre nosotros
Cuando regresamos a la tiera
La sombra y el oscuridad
La sombra que cubre nosotros
Al anochecer quando el sol regresa
 A la tierra hemos vivideo y muerto
Otra vez
 
The sun goes down and you lose your mind (choro)
You say goodbye to friends left behind (choro)
Cross your heart and you hope to die (choro)
You convince yourself as you rehearse this lie (choro)
The sun goes down and comes back again (choro)
And oh my God isn't it a shame (choro)
That all you've lost and all you've gained (choro)
Goes through the wash and comes out the same (choro)
 

Bad Social Habit (lyrics by: Ahren Buchheister and Harrison Willis)

You like to smoke on the side
And go for stoned joy rides
You like to get real drunk
Go out on the town and act like a punk
 
You're just a bad social habit
A dirty rotten bad social habit
You're just a bad social habit
A dirty rotten bad social habit
 
You like to get real stoned
Go out and screw lots of guys
Who's the last guy you boned
You're pregnant what a surprise
(repeat chorus)
 
It's just a prick in your arm
A tiny thorn in your side
All mixed up in your blood
You're hooked oh what a surprise
(repeat chorus)
 

Settle For Less (lyrics by: Cara Santin)

Don't pretend you like what I am doing

I don't care if you're ten steps ahead of me

Listen to me you must know what I'm thinking 

Yeah it probably seemed like I was deserting you
But you've gotta understand
It's not what I was trying to do
But you've gotta understand
It's not what I wanted to do
 
I can see from here that this may take awhile
But it's probably well worth the wait
So I'll grin and bare it with a smile I never meant to cause you all this pain
 
I'll give you all the space I'm willing to hold my breath
But I can't stand the thought of settling for less
After all this I'll be left with a giant mess
But there's no way I'll let this get away or settle for less

Uncanny Valley (lyrics by: Ahren Buchheister)
Take the Voight-Kampff with me
In case we're both machines
Cylons or Nexus six
Circuits with human skin

Maybe the things you hide
Are what I love the most
There's beauty in your eyes
The remains of a ghost

Maybe all androids dream
And count electric sheep
Hey, we're both self aware
Let's test our empathy

Maybe the things you hide
Are what I love the most
There's beauty in your eyes
The remains of a ghost

I watch as your cells degrade
Oh how we count the days
Four years is not enough
But that's it, your flame gets snuffed

Maybe the things you hide
Are what I love the most
There's beauty in your eyes
The remains of a ghost

Hey Mercer
Did that hurt?
We all feel your pain
It doesn't matter
If you are not real
Cuz we are all machines

On The Eve Of Impending Doom (lyrics by: Ahren Buchheister)
Go hang out with your friends
I'll be here as the world ends
All alone in my room
On the eve of impending doom

Please don't wait for the sun to go down tonight
Please don't wait for your life to just turn out right
I called to talk, we got in a fight
If it's not to late, I'll hold you tight
Back in my arms again

They say the worst is yet to come
Talking heads are banging their drums
On the five o' clock news
On this eve of impending doom

Please don't wait for the sun to go down tonight
Please don't wait for your life to just turn out right
I called to talk, we got in a fight
If it's not to late, Baby I'll hold you tight
Back in my arms again
Back in my arms again

Boyfriend Application (lyrics by: Ahren Buchheister, Cara Santin)

Chelsea I don’t care about your country
I don’t give a damn if you are in france
And living in burgundy
You’re Insufferable, Infuriating
And somehow you’re still boring
But I knew you back at school
Now you’re bitter dry and cool
Just like the wine you’re pouring


I know you’re self important now
And that you can’t come home
For Pompeii Graffiti shows
Yeah, you’re still a HO, just living in France
Just living in france
You're a ho living in france.
There's lot's of ho's in France

You know au pair  is just synonym, another word for nanny
You don’t have to go, telling all the world in
Self indulgent vanity
You are such a Ho
Bet you didn’t know
We didn’t even miss you
Thing have been so swell
If you went to hell
Nobody would notice

Your boyfriend application is driving is really quite inane
Your matching argyle fixation is driving me insane
So please go fucking die
Please go fucking die
I wish you would go die
Please go fucking die

I’m sorry if I bothered you and wasted your precious time but
You’ll spend your whole life searching for something you’ll never find
No, I’m no Carl Sagan, hell I’m nothing of the kind
So I’ll spam your fucking inbox just to waste your precious time

I’m gonna to defriend you,
I'm gonna to defriend you
Gonna fucking defriend you
I'm gonna defriend you
Please go fucking die

Perfect Narcotic (lyrics by: Ahren Buchheister, Cara Santin)
It’s the look in your eyes
That keeps me alive
Feel the knots in my stomach
Tied up so tight
It’s what keeps my heart beating
A perfect narcotic
I just had a taste
And now I can’t stop it

I’m hooked on this feeling
Of life clear and free
Like oxygen that fills my lungs
You’re the air I breathe
Although some people object
I know this is what I need
They can point their fingers all they want
It will never bother me

Will you be there with me when I hit the dirt?
Will you be there with me so I don’t get hurt?
Will you be there with me when I take the fall?
With you right by my side I’ll survive it all

Twisting and spitting up
Stains on the carpet
Shaking and clasping my
Hands in the darkness
I smash all the mirrors
In hopes of catharsis
And pick up the shards
To slit both of my wrists

It’s what keeps my heart beating
The perfect narcotic
I just had a taste
And now I can’t stop it

I hear my phone ringing
And I stop to breathe
My parents are worried
They’ve called the police
I come to my senses
And fall to my knees
Then everything goes black
And I start to seize

Neurons misfire
And I start to convulse
You’re the last thing I see
As my head hits the floor

Will you be there with me when I hit the dirt?
Will you be there with me so I don’t get hurt?
Will you be there with me when I take the fall?
With you right by my side I’ll survive it all

Cuz now I’m strung out, broke, and I’m a mess
Full of these thoughts I can’t express
Cuz my lexicon is limited
These melodies are all stolen

From some song you played a year ago
We were in your car, it was soft and low
It moved me in a special way
I turned and saw tears on your face

You told me all your greatest dreams
And your darkest fears and what they mean
I felt so safe there in your arms
I never thought we would grow apart

Now the memories all fade away
As the Chemicals evaporate
And you’ll return to who you were
And I’ll just learn to be ok

The Singularity (lyrics by: Ahren Buchheister, Cara Santin)

Another night another night
Sleeping on the couch again
The lights are out
And she is out sleeping with someone else

My eyes adjust to darkness
And the glowing LCD
One click away from loneliness
Created just for me

It’s a failure to communicate
Information lost in the wave
A transmission sent by mistake
And it’s too little too late

I can’t wait till I can download my mind
All my digital urges and my constant stream of lies
Will disappear and fade away into digital abyss
And when I shed my human skin there is nothing I will miss

So go back go back
It’s a trap it’s a trap
“Don’t let go of my hand” she says
Look away look away
Isn’t it a shame
Running round and round and round
It’s a zero sum game

It’s a failure to communicate
Information lost in the wave
A transmission sent by mistake
And it’s too little too late

I am flashing off and on like a broken TV screen
Waiting for the end of time or the singularity
So Come back come back
Come back home tonight
I’ll broadcast out my love to you
Through all of space and time

It’s a failure to communicate
Information lost in the wave
A transmission sent by mistake
And it’s too little too late

Take A Chance On Me (lyrics by: Ahren Buchheister)

I found you down by the riverside
You were dressed in white and cast aside
By a prince with too much pride
To admit when he was wrong
You said “Oh my god how can this be?
What a cruel fate, my destiny"?
So we talked just you and me
And until the daylight comes

We could laugh and dance
And drink the night away
If you just take a chance on me
And promise that you’ll stay
Cuz I’m not like those other guys
Too god damn scared to live their lives
Please, Cara, don’t you ever change

We walked a while along the shore
Until we came up to my door
I said “please come inside,
Let’s try to get you warm”
You see I’m really good at breaking things
Like promises and guitar strings
And beautiful girls’ hearts
I break them all apart

We could laugh and dance
And drink the night away
If you just take a chance on me
And promise that you’ll stay
Cuz I’m not like those other guys
Too god damn scared to live their lives
Please, Cara don’t you ever change


You said you really loved me
Or do you just need to be loved
Cuz I know sometimes you’re really lonely
And sometimes you’re all of the above


I tried to get over it
And I tried to change
Sometimes words don’t tell all of it
And sometimes things stay the same
I know, I know, I know

I found you down by the riverside
You were dressed in white and cast aside
By a prince with too much pride
To admit when he was wrong

But you and me we have something
And I can feel your heart beating
As your chest rises and falls
Yeah, I though I’d seen it all

Now we laugh and dance
And drink the night away
Cuz you took a chance on me
When I promised that I’d stay
Cuz I’m not like those other guys
Too god damn scared to live their lives
Please Cara don’t you ever change
Please Cara don't you ever change
Please Cara don't you ever change

Dark Horse (lyrics by: Ahren Buchheister)
That night you said to me
That all I'd ever do
Is compulsively
Obsess over you

I was in too deep
But I had no clue
i was naive i failed to read between the lines

And I say to her,
I will be your dark horse
And you will be my black swan
Hanging out in a parking lot
We’ll keep each other warm

When she calls up
She knows that I'll cave in
Get right in the car
And turn the ignition

I hear the engine roar
I feel the motor purr
I feel her coursing through my wretched crooked veins

Go back to sleep my love
We'll sail away together
Cuz only in dreams my dear
Will you be mine forever

And I swear to her
I will be your dark horse
And you will be my black swan
With your hands inside my pockets
We’ll keep each other warm

I will be your dark horse
And you will be my black swan
Hanging out in a parking lot
We’ll keep each other warm tonight

When her teardrops fall
Lit up by halogens
All the pain flows out
She stops making sense
She scrapes her self up off
The cold linoleum
I hear the screams and cries I squirm as I unlock the door

Paper Street (lyrics by: Ahren Buchheister, Cara Santin)
In my party days I used to snort cocaine
And that hit would go right to my brain
And mix with chemicals like dopamine
And Alcohol and ketamine
And i was king of the world if you know what that means

Too much sex, rock, drugs and violence
Now I’m in the back of an ambulance
Here’s what happens if you leave it all up to chance
You could have a near life experience

All my friends, they called me a psychopath
But I was having more fun than they would have
They better take me out cuz they won’t take me back
Everything you add you know I’ll just subtract
I see the pain I cause, it just make me laugh

Too much sex, rock, drugs and violence
Now I’m in the back of an ambulance
Here’s what happens if you leave it all up to chance
You could have a near life experience

I am
King of this paper street
It’s holding place for my empty dreams
But it don’t exist it’s a fantasy
The place where madness and boredom meet

Now I am just and old pervert
Yeah a sickly cynical introvert
So society and the psych ward team
Can diagnose what’s really wrong with me
Yeah I am king of the world I think you know what that means

am
King of this paper street
It’s holding place for my empty dreams
But it don’t exist it’s a fantasy
The place where madness and boredom meet

Too much sex, rock, drugs and violence
Now I’m in the back of an ambulance
Here’s what happens if you leave it all up to chance
You could have a near life experience

Cliche (lyrics by: Ahren Buchheister, Cara Santin)
You came to me one summer night
A little crush got out of line
And for these past few weeks
I feel like I’m living for the first time

Well all I want are sweet cliche’s
Get in the car we’ll drive someplace
With the windows down and the music loud
And your hand on my knee

If you fall asleep at night
And I can’t be right by your side
I hope you can hear this song
And never feel alone

You said that you’d take care of me
Wanna go sailing and buy me things
And as we sweat between the sheets
In your house

Happiness is so fragile
And I know these feelings come and go
But you could be the one
I just thought I’d let you know

I press my face into your shirt
And try to put thoughts into words
But I can only think of three
That will really work

It’s beautiful it’s horrible
I’m at the door don’t let me go
Just stay with me a little more
Before you take me home

If you fall asleep at night
And I can’t be right by your side
I hope you can hear this song
And never, oh never feel alone

It's beautiful, it's horrible
If you want me now then please say so
Love can be so fleeting
But it feels so meaningful

Holly Golightly (lyrics by: Tyler Grimsley)

Selfish Thing (lyrics by: Ahren Buchheister, Cara Santin)
You’ve got the cutest face that I’ve ever seen
You’ve got these perfect hands, why do you waste them on me?
I don’t deserve you but love is a selfish thing

Yeah, I'm strong enough to sweep you off of your feet
And I can help you find your bed when you’ve had too much to drink
You get so anxious but it’s never quite as bad as it seems

Oh my darling, please will you spin with me?
I won’t care, I won’t care, I won’t care what they think
This may destroy us both but our love is a reckless thing


If you’re feeling down
I’ll share in unhappiness it’s all I can do
If you’re feeling lost out there
Jjust know that you’ve got nothing to prove
To anyone else, it’s just me and you
Versus the world, and we’re not going to lose

We can use each other to alleviate some boredom in our lives
Not just video games and masturbation every night
There’s nobody else, it’s just me and you
Versus the world, and we’re not going to lose

let’s pack up our bags and get away from the east
we’ll move to California, get a place by the beach
Goodbye Annapolis, I'm off to live out my dreams

We'll both get jobs and we'llwork from nine to five
When I get off, I’ll pick you up and we’ll go for a ride
Down the coast to San Diego then we’ll come back at night

The earth will shake and and our bodies will hit the floor
We’ll roll around and laugh and tumble all our limbs in a twirl
The city falls and we laugh about the end of the world

We can use each other to alleviate some boredom in our lives
Not just video games and masturbation every night
There’s nobody else, it’s just me and you
Versus the world, and we’re not going to lose
Versus the world, and we're not going to lose
 
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